I'm sorry your life turned out so hard, Eugene.

Do you remember when I was so excited about buying those Go Diego Go tickets? Ok well, I bought them the day they went on sale to the public on  - May 19th. In big bold letters at the top of the page, it said "Children ages 2 and under free to sit in adult lap". Not a direct quote but it's not there for me to directly quote anymore. Since Kara IS 2, I only bought 2 tickets.. Two ADULT tickets for 58.00, plus 10 dollar convenience charge and another 2 dollars for facility usage. Oh and 3.75 for processing. Grand total: 73.35. I go today to look at the seating charts and do you know what I see there? EVERYONE NEEDS A TICKET. Now, that makes it sound to me like someone is going to be left out. I call the WL Jack Howard Theater and ask. I know they aren't going to do anything and I already know they won't be helpful but what they said to me was so very unhelpful. She said " I don't know what to tell you, ma'am." She said that it changed to 1 and under free. A fuck lot of good that does me. Now what am I going to do with Kara while Casey and I go watch that fucking show? If I sold those tickets, and we all know how well a pair of  Go Diego fucking Go tickets would sell around here, and then paid 90+ dollars for 3 more tickets (plus all those other charges) , we would lose our row J center stage tickets and get some row HH tickets that would probably have us seated in the parking lot. Why can't life go as I plan it?

On another shitty note, I have to go get a second MRI on the ... on Monday to see how much my herniated disk has healed in two years without treatment. And then I'm supposed to start epidural steroid injections. They like to try all possible things to fix you before they try surgery. So let's start adding up charges now. Go Alysia Go. Goddamnit.

I released the possums back to the woods. A few days later, they are both gone. I bought an extra Diego ticket so we could all go have a nice family time together and it was great!(Saw it lastnight.)  Had another MRI last week. The L4-L5 herniation is now gone but I still have DDD throughout my entire lumbar area, a bulge between L5-S1 and a congenital birth defect. Yeah I'm deformed freak. (As it turns out, I have an extra bone.) Yesterday I had my transforaminal injection. It was a blast. Versed+Fentanyl+steroid = alergic reaction. Broke out in rash. Started itching. Gave me IV Benadryl = sleepy. Still hurt. Gave me Ultracet for home use since codeine makes me claw like a mad person. I think Ultracet causes chest pains. Blood pressure still up - was 162/102 last time I took it. Kara's birthday was today. It was fun. There's a few pics on Flickr.. I may just stick a couple on here when I'm done. Having the most God awful heartburn tonight. Blame pizza. Took everything I could think of. Looked up home remedies then ate some brown sugar. No joy. Drank some vinegar. Worked OK. Ate a few crackers. Horrid results. Slurped down a few spoons of mustard. BINGO! It actually fucking worked. The hurt is like barely there now.

^^that's a cake I made.

Ok so on Thursday, I had cortisone injected right on my little nerve root. I didn't go into much detail about it the other day because I was in a hurry. I heard a lot people say they have had these injections and they were very painful. Like painful to the point of crying. I didn't really want to take any "relaxing" drugs or pain meds but they (nice nurse people) thought maybe I should go ahead and get doped up because of my *cough* blood pressure. So I was sitting in that little waiting room with a little Versed in me thinking about the agony and screaming that I'd soon be experiencing. When my time came, I was a little disappointed. They had a screen up in front of me and if I craned my neck around, I could see the x-ray of my back and see the needle poking around in there. I thought he had laid the needle on my back before he got started. That's what it looked like anyway but that needle... that HUGE needle was actually poking around inside me and I didn't even know it until he injected the medication. And that really didn't hurt. It felt like someone squirted ice water into my back and I felt it get cold all the way down my leg. Not my whole leg, just where that nerve went. On Friday, there was no change really. My back/leg hurt easier than before but no worse. I had given up hope but when I woke up Saturday morning, something seemed different. It took me a while to figure it out. When I got out of bed, I was standing straight up. That was what was different. Every morning for over two years, I've gotten out of bed and could not stand up straight. It was freakin' weird! I would say my pain has decreased 90% in these last two day. I haven't even had to take a Tylenol! (except for a headache.) Out of habit, I'm still trying to stand leaned forward a little but when I realize I'm doing it, I can actually straighten up to my full 5'2" height. Yay (so far)!