I'm sorry your life turned out so hard, Eugene.

It's been a rather quiet month. Kara's birthday was in June. Six years old.. Can you believe that? In a decade she'll be driving and probably doing other things I try not to think about. If you ask her how old she is,she'll tell you 5. She refuses toturn 6.OK..my spacebar is broken so whatever space is left out, I won't be replacing. Anyway-6- refuses.. All because every year I tell her,"THIS!! This yearright here will be the year you start sleeping in your own bed. When you are SIX, you're evicted from the mommy bed." There'sbeen one time that she told someone she was 6.It was a few days ago at a jewelry party she and I mistakenly went to. A little boy, who said he was 5, started taking to her. She told him "Well,I'm SIX." That was her way of telling him to fuck off. Oh,and the jewelry party was a mistakebecause I spent $150.. I got 2 necklaces and 2 bracelets... for $150. Not my smartest moment.

What else?? Oh the good doc called me 27 days ago to tellme I had high cholesterol. He explained that mine level 272 and something about a 4.3 andsomething else about Zocor. What I heard was "CHOLESTEROLOLOLOL". So add that to my list of ailments.

We went to Monroe yesterday to get schoolclothes. They're much cheaper atAcademy. I even got a new pair of shoes. They're exactly the same as my old shoes. The dog chewed my old ones up coupleyears ago. Then wewentto fucking IHOP. Again.They had this new ham/egg/cheese sammach thing that was the bomb diggity. I told them to put a fried egg on it and not scrambled. Holy hell it was awesome. I didn't see chicknwaffles of the menu this time so I guess they are done with that. Everytime we go to that place,someone ends up crying. Kara smacked the fuck out of her head again the wall behind us. ThenCasey smashed Andy's leg against the table when we were getting up to leave. He probably has a bruise there now. And somehow,I managed to pull a muscle in my neck. That made getting comfy to sleeplast night damn near impossible. I'd havetolay oneway so my back wouldn't hurt and when I'dget thatpart feeling nice, it pulled on my neck. Shit night, I tell ya.

Can't think of much else.Andy has been army-crawling for about a month too. He's a quick little thing on the ground. He's also getting his first two bottom teeth. Yay for teething babies.

And this is all. I can't think of anything else to say. :|

Sleep came easy but my gawd was it horrifying. In no particular order, here's what I remember.

I said I was moving. I didn't care to where. I just left. I ended up naked in Illinois. I don't know why, but I tried swimming through a watery crop. It had pretty shrubby plants that had what looked like tiny watermelons as fruit. But when I touched the fruit, they grew in size and had spikes poke out. So while I was swimming, I was getting cut by all the spikes. I finally got to land and decided to ask people for help. I was hanging from a board, still naked, asking them for clothes. The couple gave me clothes and I started out on my journey again. In a backyard I made it to, there was a tiny rhino with a tiny ostrich on its head. They were both abandoned by their moms and turned to each other for company. I wanted to feed them but had nothing. I kept wondering why the people didn't feed them. Then I saw a small enclosure with two giraffes, a yellow kitten and a monkey. The giraffe saw a bug and tried to stomp it, narrowly missing the kitten who was now curled in a defenseless ball. Then the monkey... The goddamned MONKEY grabbed the kitten and started cracking his skull apart. I was covering my ears so I couldn't hear. While my hand were up, it started stuffing bits of the skull into my mouth. Just cramming these, hot, bloody bones in my mouth. Finally when there was no skull left, I ran. I started spitting the bones out. It felt like the sharp edges were tearing my mouth open. I said "Yeah, I'll go back." Dunno wtf that was about.

It was horrible. I don't want to sleep anymore.